Sembang dari hati.....Who knows

Pejam celik pejam celik dah hampir 7 tahun cikson masuk alam pencen. 7 looooong years.
7 tahun apa aku buat ya? Soalan yang selalu bermain di benak fikiran.
Two years back into teaching . a year nursing the fractured wrist,a year into the wedding preparation of my daughter and the rest.....hmmm I dont quite know.
I had envisioned a life different from what I had those few years but things turned out differently.Mostly about financial matters .And those matters werent of my making either.Going to Mecca either for umrah or the haj ,seeing all the children settled were some that if they so happened would be the very best that I could ask for.
The months prior to my last day in service were full of happy thoughts.Alas those happy thoughts were marred by unfortunate incidences.Incidences that last years to overcome .Maybe not in a life time.
Money matters soon loomed its ugly head.You wont feel it until you gone through it.By and by you do not now where the bulk of the money went to....

But not all are tears.They were some that I was thankful for.
Those 2 years that I went back  teaching were happy moments if not for those incidents that were not of my likings and doing..It was not about the school.the staff or the children,
And seeing the girl happily married was also my happy day.

However,seeing happy faces of my colleagues donned in winter attires posing in front of significant landmarks made me feel a tad envious.How lucky they were.If it could be me.

But those who do not know say I am lucky to the point of being green.
Seronoklah dia boleh pi sana sini.
Seronoklah dia sehat,tak sakit apa apa.

Usahlah cemburu....pi sana sini bukan atas berjoli tapi atas urusan itu ini
Sakit tanggung sendiri...tak payah salahkan orang lain serta ke sana sini tagih simpati.

Sometimes if you dont have anybody to tell your woes,writing them down do wonders..Haha ni lah sembang dari hati seorang wanita .Yang dulu masa bekerja busy ya rabbi.Sekarang masa terluang mahu diguna cari redza Ilahi...sebelum mati menghampiri.

Who knows what tomorrow story will be...
As it is am happy being me...
Really?

the trees in my garden....updated and repost 1

People in the family is like trees in the garden...so it says.Found this a while ago.Based on the birth dates ,which tree are you..

          Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree 
          Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree 
         Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree 
         Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree 
         Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree 
          Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree 
      

FIG TREE (the Sensibility) - very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a social butterfly, good sense of humor, likes idleness and
laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.
FIR TREE (the Mysterious) - extraordinary taste, dignity, sophisticated, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn,  tends to egoism but cares for those close to them, rather modest, very  ambitious, talented, industrious, uncontented lover,  many friends, many challengers, very reliable.
HAZELNUT TREE (the Extraordinary) - charming, undemanding, very understanding, knows how to make an impression,  active fighter for social cause, popular, moody, and capricious lover, honest, and tolerant partner, precise sense of judgement.
WALNUT TREE (the Passion) - unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic,aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
WEEPING WILLOW (the Melancholy) - beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.

pokok cermai adalah kat garden RBL...nak cari weeping willow ke keluar negara jawabnya.

well there’s some truth in it. isnt it?

Cikli is a fig tree while cikson is a walnut....

The eldest is a weeping willow while the youngest is a hazelnut.

And I must agree that some descriptions do tally.

Bila cikli tengok bola...

GOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL....
Hoooi...awat lembik sangat.
Ha tendang,tendang.
Balik tidoq lagi baik...
Allah!
Fuyoo...

Itulah suara suara dan ulasan selari yang kedengaran dari ruang tamu RBL.Setiap kali ada perlawanan bola.Cikson tak berapa gemar nak tonton .Sekali sekala bolehlah.

Bila cikli control tv..cikson tak dapat tonton rancangan disukai.Jadi mengadap lappy lah dia semasa cikli bertempik suka atau sakit hati.
Tak kuasa dia nak tonton tapi sakit hati bila perlawanan tak menjadi.
Tak mau dia darah tinggi dengar cikli dok maki maki...

Eh..apa yang dok baca dalam lappy tu...sampai dah tak peduli apa jadi dalam perlawanan ditv.
Cikson suka baca forum...dari Cari Gold,Cari Forum dan juga blog blog yang disukai.
Curious nak tahu tentang apa perkembangan terbaru negara dan dunia hari ini.

Kesian PM kena balun kiri kanan
Kesian Kak Mah jadi bahan tohmahan
Kesian rakyat berkeluh kesah akibat kenaikan harga yg adakala tak munasabah.Siang tadi cikli ke pharmacy beli ubat dan alatan sakitnya....beringgit ringgit naiknya harga dari biasa.

Terbaca berita ferry terbakar diThailand
Terbaca letupan bom di Koh Samui
Terbaca ramalan gempa yg mungkin tiba di Jepun dari petanda petanda yang ada
Cikson rasa gabra.
Anak ada bercuti diThailand disana
Anak saudara pun kerap ke Jepun kerana kerja
Anak di Indonesia sunyi tanpa berita...

Mohon tu biarlah mereka selamat sahaja.Terhindar dari mara bahaya.
Kadang kadang macam tak mau baca berita lagi...

Ignorance is bliss....

DIY...mewangi yang membusuk

Memasuki saja pintu hadapan,hidung menangkap satu bau yang kurang menyenangkan.
Issh...macam macam ada.Terbayang kolong dihadapan deretan gerai makan Kuala.Entahlah..kalau busuk saja mesti terbayang disitu.

Sertamerta cikson mencari .Dari mana datangnya bau yang 'mewangi' itu.
Membuka tudung saji makanan tengah hari,cikson seperti seorang penyiasat menghidu lebihan makanan yang ada didalam pinggan,
Huih....this is the culprit...Semangkuk gulai daging rebung masam rupanya.Mau tidaknya masam saja segenap antero rumah .
Cepat cepat mangkuk lebihan  gulai daging itu dibawa ke dapur utk dilupuskan.

Hmm...masih lagi melekat bau masam itu..
Apa usaha cikson utk menyahbaukan ruang rumah ini.

Air freshner dimana?
Febreeze pun dah tinggal botol.

Cikson gelidah fridge dan terlihat beberapa botol pewangi makanan..Ada rasa pandan,ada vanilla ,ada rose..Dalam kuali cikson isi air dan perasa makanan .Campuran itu dididihkan dan wapkan.Kuali yang berasap itu cikson bawa ke ruang depan.Biar wap pewangi itu memenuhi ruang.

usaha yg dijalankan....air campuran  perasa makanan dipanaskan

warna hinau.....perasa pandan

Dan bila cikli balik dia komen...hai bau apa wangi ni.You masak kek kah?
Hehe...masak kek?
Kalau tidak komen cikli mesti berbunyi..
Hiiii...bau apa ni macam bau ca ya rit ni.....

Itulah anak2 jangan gelabah bila bau rumah tengik semacam.Cuci dan buang benda benda yg memberi dan membawa bau busuk .Lepas itu kamu wangikan dia dengan memanaskan cairan perasa makanan.

warna coklat....kulit kayu manis

Inilah pewangi instant yg cikson usahakan ....bermain main dgn hasil semula jadi dan alam.Ada rose,ada pandan dan juga kulit kayu manis.Kalau ada lemon ,vanilla pun boleh juga.Buatlah apa saja asal anda suka.

Tapi andai integriti yang tercemar dan membusuk...apa daya ya nak mewangi kembali?