After the calm....

It has been nearly half a year my life been sober.
There's no hurry to see the eye Specialist at HSB,Alor Setar.
There's no worry about the parking space there.
No worry too of how long the appointment would last that day.
All since cikli was seconded back to HTF in Kangar.

And I thought my work is over.
I could breathe normally, do housework as per normal housewife.
Then cikli imparted this news to me this afternoon over lunch at Andaman.
I may have to undergo dialisis .... cuci kidney come this October.
Tu la dok rasa pening, loya. Ingat sbb makan daging banyak.

Thoughts came fleeting by. My late sister was a dialysis patient . She succumbed to the sickness few years back after enduring the routine for a couple of years.
Pictures of her after dialysis came to my mind.
Letih lesu....
With lesions on her arms where the needles went.

Thoughts too came on how I would able to handle this coming phase.
My health is not in the pink of form.
Been having HBP , knee pain, lethargic and an assortment of sickness now and then.
Am I able to cope alone.

Then a memory came by....loud and clear.Senangnya berkata.
May Allah grants me the strength to go through all these.