Life as it is... sombre Saturday

Its a sombre Saturday morning up here in the north ,dear people.
The sky is dull without the usual sunrays as of normal days. Its going to rain once again. As I took out the clothes to dry ,the clouds in the horizon I notice was heavy. Anytime the rain would come down. I tell myself. Gather back the washings and would hang them to dry when the sky is clear. Hope so.

Paid the bills for October. Hmmm.... gone is my hard earned pension. Leaving just enough to see us through. But I have to be grateful. Ada lagi boleh makan, ada bumbung boleh berteduh dari hujan dan panas and ada lagi kekeuatan dan kesihatan untuk meneruskan hidup yg berbaki ini.

My feeling is very brittle these few days when I heard of misfortunes met by my loved ones and my few known friends and acquiantances.
Tentu kecewa ibu dan bapa yang membesarkan si anak yg terpesong dari landasan agama dan kehidupan. I told myself. Those 7 kids who burnt down the tahfiz are now in court. Whatever the outcome of trial has yet to be seen.

The apek/towkay hantar gas hold some truths.
Anak masa kecil kita boleh ajar. Dah besar mereka kena jaga diri sendiri. Mana kita larat nak jaga depa. He said before he left.
But those accused are minors. As minors they come under the care of their parents.
I laughed heartily when my girl complained that I was severe with them.
Mata macam burung lang. Tau saja apa kami buat. She admonished.
Sesal of being a tiger mother? Yes,a bit. But having a tiger mother and a dragon father, I was not endowed with gentle loving soothing grace . I was stern in most situations. And only when I aged,I realised that it takes effort to shed all those garangness. Now... the garang mother could share story mories with the children.But my youngest daughter said mama tak garang aih... hihi.

Its a sombre Saturday all right. But lets us be sunny and bright in our heart.
Still reeling with memories of Pohim's laughters. Kalau dekat dah maktok pergi jenguk dia. Nak peluk cium dia and dengar dia nyanyi nyanyi sambil buat aktiviti. Nak naik ets tapi tokwan is still recuperating .Alahai...

Thats all folks. Sat lagi nak kena keluar bawa cikli ke KIM. Minta2 tu janganlah hujan.

Bye...