Life as it is...

Just mundane . Nothing spectacular.
When one is resigned to fate. Thats my take of life as it is.

Hati bagai dicuit cuit ingin menelusuri jalan jalan yang pernah dilalui. Yang simple simple bukan yg memeningkan,menyakitkan sudah pasti.

Yearning those carefree days..actually not really carefree, when we are able to go travelling as one family.Going on those escapades to the hills and waterfalls and not forfetting picnicking by the river.
Jumping on the train to meet family members in the city. Or boarding a flight to the east coast to savour the delights .
Those days when I climbed the stairs of stages to receive accolades for service rendered and achievements of schools I was in.
Those days when we dragged our bags to courses near and far. Meeting and making friends.

hah... those days are hard to come by now.

NOW.... as it is...

Going to clinics and hospitals for never ending hubby's doctors' appoinments. One day,it was the KIM,another day to bumbung biru,HTF ,HSB or HLAS.
Then lunch would be outside even when sometimes you are sick of outside food. You already know where the food is agreeable to your pallete.
Passing by the food stores ,you could already tell what kind of food would be served there.
Sini masin nya ya amat.
Sini tawaq hebiaq
Sini tunggu sejam baru boleh minum
Sini pula.. mahainya ya ampun..

And when you are settled for your choice of eatery, you just know right away what to scoop onto your plate. And you could roughly tell how much you would be charged.

It was evening when you could cook for dinner as buying food again is a no no. Last night I made steam siakap and siakap tiga rasa. For 8 ringgit a fish . Murah dan menjimatkan.
Another day was kotiau goreng cikson style .And yet another day, cucuq jagung.

Itulah kehidupan...depan depan lagi tak taulah nak ramalkan.
Mohon mohon tu biarlah aman aman. Tak larat wei nak dengar sana sini berdentum dentam.
Last night,I was lazily lying on the couch watching the news . From the first channel,the news was agreeable. Tak sakit telinga dengar walau kadang terkeluar comment tak setuju.
Then cikli changed channel.
Cepat cepat aku angkat kaki. Termeloya dengar berita jam 8 malam kalau channel tu.
Dah tahu akan sakit hati dengar berita macam tu ,awat dok tebiang buka tak tau.. aku merungut.
Lepas tu sakit hati.

Thats all folks..
Coretan kami pagi pagi
Satgi nak kena jadi dreber suami...
Apa apa pun kerja rumah kena beresi.
Itulah hidup yang terpaksa dilalui..
Hari hari.
Selagi tak mati!